As Above, So Below

 I don't know why that title. Mostly because I was listening to Tool, and those lyrics just popped into my braincell. Power of suggestion. 

Some 20+ days until I start a new life. 

The planning is different this time. I am exploring new options for combatting the withdrawal slings and arrows. 

We already don't smoke in the house, so I will move my work station back to my indoors office. 

I'm now used to walking the neighborhood, so daily walks will help me get out and breathe in real air. 

I think it is happening at the right time. The right place. It had to happen here. Here is my happy place. Here is my safe place. Here, surrounded by these enormous formations of rock. Here, where there is none of the baggage of the old life. Here, where I can be whatever the fuck I want to be. Here is where it will happen. 

I give zero fucks what the naysayers would say - just do it now. Just go cold turkey. Just do this ... Just do that. Zero. Fucks. Given. 

I have to do this in the way that I know will work for me. 

There is a world of opportunity outside of this addiction. I was thinking today, I'm actually going to start living LIFE instead of just living to be addicted to something. Don't get me wrong, I already am living life, but NOT anywhere close to the fullest. 

All those things I've put off, I will now have a lot of time to learn and do.